That's funny that you were working for the fundamentalists! It takes an open mind. I have had many jobs in "security" and have been entertained by wearing a police uniform. Little do the enforcement-minded folks know who they have hired to be their enforcer. I hold to no human-made law that I do not agree with. I think it is better to infiltrate and convince from within, than it is to confront such cultures.
I'm giving myself four years to complete this educational program. It would take major hardship to dissuade me, since I have been working in this direction for years, and in spite of my sporadic doubts, I am convinced that this is the best place for what I want to do. I grouch and complain and worry at times, but in my gut I feel both resolve and joy. I am a basket full of opposite feelings. So no---I haven't really set a deadline for making a fresh decision. That decision happens every day. I suspect that Portland will only grow on me.
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Re: On the edge
Date: 2007-11-04 05:03 pm (UTC)I'm giving myself four years to complete this educational program. It would take major hardship to dissuade me, since I have been working in this direction for years, and in spite of my sporadic doubts, I am convinced that this is the best place for what I want to do. I grouch and complain and worry at times, but in my gut I feel both resolve and joy. I am a basket full of opposite feelings. So no---I haven't really set a deadline for making a fresh decision. That decision happens every day. I suspect that Portland will only grow on me.